Period

I finally had my period after 2 years of waiting. 

Menunggu 6 hari lepas habiskan provera 5mg.

It was awkward. Period pain is so severe until today, my 6th day. 

Quite heavy flow. 

Uncomfortable. 

Pap Smear

02.01.2018

Benarlah, pengalaman orang lain tidak membantu jika kau tak alaminya sendiri.

Pap Smear asalnya memang tak sakit pun. But I dont know why, it hurts me so much. 

Doktor dengan nurse berkali pujuk suruh relaks, jangan kepit, turunkan punggung. 

Tapi aku terjerit-jerit sakit.

So doktor said, tak berjaya buat. Then proceed to scan my vagina using this transducer. 

Once done, she pulled out this stick and I saw blood floating around the gel.
Then doktor suruh buat UPT, as expected got some blood on my pantyliner.
I am still traumatized over the fact that my pap smear experience was horrible.
Sakit gila. Ngilu. Kalau basuh bawah ni still rasa sakit. Dah la sakit, tak berjaya pulak tu.

First appoinment , doktor bagi Provera untuk 5 hari. My progesterone level is too low.
Next appointment harapnya tak ada apa-apa dia masukkan kat bawah ni.

I lost my virginity to pap smear. Sigh.